My Sweet Moon
2018
Blue Moon, I wonder at you
And how you change your colors.
Blue Moon your hues
The same as my tears.
But I won’t cry them over you,
And I won’t let them be used,
Oh Blue Moon you speak to me
When I’m confused.
Life it has so much to share,
But why must we always bare
The fruits of yesterday,
Oh to sway, to the music in my heart,
And to love with all I’ve got.
But then you shine through
And forgive me my sweet Moon,
But you’re making me blue too.
Red Moon, I feel you, a vampire in the sky
Red Moon why do you do
The things I dare not try,
But I won’t howl at passers by
And I won’t bleed my veins bone dry,
Oh Red Moon you paint me
With colors infused
Life is not where we disappear,
Yet we feed our past doubts and fears
Oh to dance under the warm sun-light,
Or snowflakes of crystal white
But then you shine through
And forgive me my sweet Moon,
But you no-longer-make-me swoon.
Sweet Grey Moon, original, you;
How dear your surprise
Beautiful Moon, comfort to view,
In the dead of night,
And I will watch and I will sing,
And I will wish upon your lines
Oh Midnight Moon,
Caress my weary, mind
Life presents you as a spell,
Perhaps a magic, I cannot tell
Oh to forget the loneliness and fret
To laugh once again,
But then you shine through
And forgive me my sweet Moon,
But my eyes are fixed upon your light.
Rabbit
2018
Do you wanna play a game tonight,
And chase me down the rabbit hole?
Do you wanna come and lose your mind,
May I be your goal?
If you display the cards, I’ll deal you in,
If you speak the words, I’ll let you win,
So, do you feel the need to sleep enriched,
Do you wanna play the game,
All it takes is a whisper,
What’s your pitch?
Seal it with a kiss?
I never asked for this,
For your hand in mind, & time to dive.
I never knew how far things would go,
And I won’t say no.
Curious creature,
Ooh, you don’t say no.
Do you wanna run around the bend,
And escape into my Neverland?
Do you wanna feel alive again,
Not fear beating the mend?
If you display some fight,
I’ll share my gloves,
If you stand against the ropes,
I’ll cheer you on,
So, do you feel the need to sleep enriched,
Do you wanna run around the bend,
All it takes is a genie in a lamp,
Three wishes and a well.
I never asked for this,
For your hand in mind, & time to dive.
I never knew how far things would go, And I won’t say no.
Curious creature,
Ooh, you don’t say no.
Do you wanna play a game tonight,
And chase me down the rabbit hole?
Do you wanna come and lose your mind, May I be your goal?
If you display an Ace, I’ll have to go,
If you show a Heart, I’ll save your soul,
So, do you feel the need to sleep enriched,
Do you wanna play the game,
All it takes is a whisper,
What’s your pitch?
Seal it with a kiss?
I never asked for this,
For your hand in mind, & time to dive.
I never knew how far things would go, And I won’t say no.
Curious creature,
Ooh, you don’t say no.
Curious creature,
We don’t say no.
Adrift
2018
Down in the summer rain,
Past the pastures of pain,
I walked the steady beat,
Turned my collar to the sleet.
Bone dry and gone,
I crumble along,
A memory is all I’ve got,
Around here, that’s quite a lot.
When you’re whistling a tune,
Humming it new,
Not a dollar or dime,
Your treasure is time.
You fall on the floor,
The leaves give a roar,
A breeze picks you up.
Even though you’ve had it rough,
Oh, you’ve always been tough,
And found someone to love.
A Star Born In Fall
2018
A star, born in fall,
Remembers the rise.
From the seed that grew it all,
Set its sights so high.
A dream is realized,
Inside one, full of life.
A star, born in fall,
With a diamond pair of eyes.
Speak from the heart,
Share your story strong.
Meet at the finish line,
All the stars the breeze carries home.
Sail Away Bay
2021
Sail away
To a midnight bay
And call upon the waves
For the isle of whiles
Are all asleep
Under church lights halo
Glowing.
​
Sail away
To a far away
Where the grass
Is all but browning
And the streets curve round
Til you lose your ground
On the maze of giant
Stairways.
​
Sail away
To a tower of islands
Peaking through the cloud's haze
Where a winter sun
Burns trees
Til there are none
And the ships wreck
Among the catacombs.
​
Sail away
Black Capitana
Lead us past the buckling
Lest we swim
With sunken gold
In a blue glass
Lagoon.
The Living Song
2022
Give too much
Won't give less
But giving up
Past's a mess.
​
How do you heal a broken vessel,
When the gold peels off,
Now you're stuck with metal?
How do you return
From an addictive dark,
After mistaking the cold for warmth?
I'm healing
With every breath
I'm breathing. x2
​
Held on too long
Lost your passions
Thought you're sailing
Instead you're sliding backwards
​
How do you heal a broken vessel,
Cracks too big, the size of castles?
How do you come back
When you've seen the light,
Not ready to give up on paradise?
​
You're healing
With every breath
You're breathing.
​
We're all healing
With every breath
We're breathing.
​
No need to say
You're sorry
I hear your
Inner worries
Life doesn't
Stay lonely
When you
Carry on.
​
Healing
Every breath
Breathing. x3
Wherefore Art My Confidence
2022
Suppression of my mind
In the fists of your sedation
On a nervous system kind
Until you pick apart my patience.
​
Where are you my confidence?
Why are you so quiet?
Why is duck tape across your lips?
Where is your voice, voice...
Don't Speak
​
Yell!
Yell until your heart bleeds red,
And your face turns blue,
Cuz all of the-all of the world
Belongs to you too.
Yell!
Until the void bursts open
Serving you compassion
Not another...
​
Gaslighter on my heels
Your behavior is surreal
How am I the one insane
When your kindness feels like hell.
​
Where are you my confidence?
Why are you so quiet?
Why can you defend everyone
But not my voice, voice...
Don't Speak
​
Yell!
Yell until your heart bleeds red,
and your face turns blue,
cuz all of the-all of the world
belongs to you too.
Yell!
Until the void bursts open
Serving you compassion
Not another...
​
Bruise for my bag of traumas
I've no interest in collecting
Or sharing them with others
For your cliques and entertainment.
​
Where are you my confidence?
Why are you so quiet?
I promise you're not arrogance
Speak up your mind, mind...
Don't be silent
​
While you still have a voice
While you still have time
Yell until your heart bleeds red,
and your face turns blue,
cuz all of the-all of the world
belongs to you too.
Yell!
Until the void bursts open
Serving you compassion
Yell! (whispered)
The Matter of the Matter
2022
When I dunno what to say
I falter
Without a source of light
I stumble.
​
Grab my hand
Pull me up
By thoughts
That could fill my cup.
Hold out hope
& say a prayer
Promise
You'll say, "you matter", dear.
​
When I lose my step
My heart skips a beat
My mind plated is a weight
Pressure served with a side of fear.
​
Grab my hand
Pull me up
By thoughts
That could fill my cup.
Hold out hope
& say a prayer
Promise
You'll say, "you matter", dear.
​
You matter
I matter
But the matter
of the matter
Is the doubt
Not knowing
There's no whole
Without an I.
​
Grab my hand
I'll pull you up
By thoughts
That could fill your cup.
For the matter
Of the matter
Is no one matters
Unless we all do
Side by side.
In Service
2022
What's my worth, worth
I'm not perfect
But I do the work.
What's my worth, worth
Gotta have my back
When the vultures start circlin'.
​
I could shut my mouth
Do a little curtsy
But I ball up my fists
When anyone screams,
"You're not worthy!"
​
What's my worth, worth
I'm not perfect
But I do the work.
What's my worth, worth
Gotta have my back
When the sharks start circlin'.
​
I could be a rose
A statue in your garden
But I sharpen up my thorns
When my heart screams,
"You are worthy!"
​
What's my worth, worth
Return my crown to my head
I will not beg, out of service
What's my worth, worth
Gotta have my back
When the wolves start circlin'.
​
If your opinions
Were my world
I'd be prisoner
To your hurt
But I'm no one's victim
Pay attention when I scream,
"I am worthy!"
​
What's your worth,
Worth?
Who Needs Mars?
2022
Perhaps one day we'll all write songs
About the people we once knew
When memorials stand taller
Than our skyscrapers blue.
​
The world flooded from our tears
Burnt to ashes by our fears.
​
We destroyed forever
With our never never
Gonna change within.
​
We won't win
With our never never
Gonna change our minds.
​
I won't be a child
Of this utopia dystopia
I choose...
​
Life under clouds and sunlight
Sleeping in a grass bed at night.
Gazing at the bright stars
Yeah, I've got Earth,
Who needs Mars?
​
Perhaps one day we'll all write songs
About the memorials we once knew
When people stand taller
Than our skyscrapers blue.
​
The world burnt to ashes by our tears
Flooded from our fears.
​
We destroyed forever
With our never never
Gonna change our minds.
​
We won't win
With our never never
Gonna change within.
​
I won't be a child
Of this dystopia utopia
I choose...
​
Life under clouds and sunlight
Sleeping in a grass bed at night.
Gazing at a red Mars
As long as we've got Earth,
Who needs stars?
Blood World
2019-2022
I have seen the way
The whole world bleeds
And I know how
The heart of the universe beats
I have seen the way
The whole world bleeds
I will not be
A victim of war’s increase.
I’ve been fragile
Feared footsteps
Cowered at silence
Counted exits
I’ve woken
Screaming fists clenched
Tears streaming
I have broken.
Head under rainwater
Sometimes cold as knives
Other times life giving
I’m not a shell anymore
Love keeps my heart beating.
I have seen the way
The whole world bleeds
And I know how
The heart of the universe beats
I have seen the way
The whole world bleeds
I will not be
A victim of violence’s release.
I’ve been damaged
Beaten bound
Selfish voices threw me
On the ground
I’ve been chained
To a bed of sweat
Hateful words repeating
I have broken.
Head under rainwater
Sometimes drowns me
Other times lifts me up
I’m not empty inside anymore
Love keeps my heart beating.
I have seen the way
The whole world bleeds
And I know how
The heart of the universe beats
I have seen the way
The whole world bleeds
I’ll remain a child of our Creator’s peace.
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Across Galaxies
2022
I want to pretend
You didn't harm my heart
You didn't sever my sinews into shards
To rip out what you wanted
From me.
​
I want to pretend
You didn't blatantly lie
When I asked you why
You would die to save
Who we could have been.
​
The answer is in my navel
Where your fingers gently ladle
Out the truth
To lips that speak freely
Desecrate our bleeding palms
On the serum in open cracked jars.
​
Shooting stars aren't for shooting.
​
I want to pretend
I didn't say I'm sorry
I didn't break your brain to stop you
From abusing my generosity
​
I want to pretend
I didn't tell any lies
You convince me otherwise
Cuz I can't be innocent
When I'm guilty on your side.
​
The answer is in my navel
Where your fingers gently ladle
Out the truth
To lips that speak freely
Desecrate our bleeding palms
On the serum in open cracked jars.
Shooting stars aren't for shooting
(Dreams worth pursuing)
Shooting stars aren't for shooting
(Cradling catastrophes)
Shooting stars are for sailing
Across galaxies.
Songs
2023
Happiness is a song the rich play
Hope is a melody the poor endure
Waiting for someone
To care about them
More than money,
But do they?
For how long?
​
Strikes are the stripes on the homeless
Riots are the tears of the abused
Waiting for someone
To not use them
In so many ways
They do not wish
To be used.
​
Peace isn't war but a war song.
War isn't peace but a drum of doom.
Flutes are but pipes
Piercing eardrums
Each night
Until morning comes.
​
When will humility be a tune the rich
Sing
When will relief be a harmony the poor
Choir
No longer waiting
For the rain
On a hot summer's day
When will the floods
Carry the Ark?
​
Have you heard the whispers
Of the larks?
Painted
2023
Trend setter
I don't follow fashions
Paint my face in layers
Distract from what's natural
Go ahead
I won't yuck your yum
Just refuse to numb
My beautiful
​
So straighten your curls
Cover up in pearls
Suck your lipstick,
I love the way God painted me
Colored me in rainbows
The way the rain flows
I love the way God painted me
​
Re setter
On what's important
Is the dollar worth it
For five years extra after taxes
Go ahead
Age less in your skin
I won't insult the rings
To your beautiful
​
When you un-straighten your curls
Uncover your pearls
Chuck your lipstick,
I love the way God painted you
Colored you in rainbows
The way the rain flows
I love the way God painted you
​
Go getter
Little friendly rebel
Wear what you like
Let's go out and dance tonight
Go ahead
Wear the socks on your arms
Wear the dress upside down
Wear beautiful
​
When we lighten our bounce
Undo every ounce
Duck the nonsense,
I love the way God painted us
Colored us in rainbows
The way the rain flows
I love the way God painted us.
Suid Afrika, My Hart,
Suid Afrika, My Land
2024
Wanneer ek onthou die lessies wat my Ma my het geleer,
Toe ek 'n kind was en rondloop in die veld van ons Heer,
Ek onthou nog steeds die land van my Pa,
Ek onthou nog steeds ons pragtige Suid-Afrika.
​
Luister liedje, vat my huis toe,
Asseblief, dra my siel,
Aan die mense wat my lief het,
Ek sing steeds oor ons heuwels.
Luister liedje, vat my huis toe,
Asseblief, dra my daarheen,
Aan die mense wat ek lief het,
Ek sing steeds oor ons land, ons juweel.
​
Wanneer ek onthou die krag en mag van ons tuine,
Onthou ek ook die braais wat smaak so lekker,
Ek onthou nog steeds die land van my hart,
Ek onthou nog die dae wat ons saam gestap het.
​
Luister liedje, vat my huis toe,
Asseblief, dra my siel,
Aan die mense wat my lief het,
Ek sing steeds oor ons heuwels.
Luister liedje, vat my huis toe,
Asseblief, dra my na my vriende,
Aan die mense wat ek lief het,
Ek sing steeds oor ons gemeenskap, ons gesinne.
​
Wanneer ek onthou die lessies wat my Ma my het geleer,
Toe ek 'n kind was en rondloop in die veld van ons Heer,
Ek onthou nog steeds die land van my Pa,
Ek onthou nog steeds ons pragtige Suid-Afrika.
Shadow
2024
I'm not your shadow,
You're mine.
I'm not your shadow,
You're mine.
Just because I'm darker
On the outside
Doesn't mean I can't shine
I'm not the one following
I'm building up a life
Don't push, push
Me out
It'll set me on fire.
I'm not your shadow,
You're mine.
I'm not your shadow,
White light.
Just because I'm not healed
On the inside
Doesn't mean I can't rise
I'm not the follower of your tour bus
I'm the band you left behind
Don't cry, cry
For me
My stars will align
I'm not your shadow,
You're mine
I'm not your shadow,
Black light.
Just because I'm lighter
On the other side
Doesn't mean I'm always fine
I'm not the paparazzi of your world
I'm the photographer of mine
Don't pull, pull
Me back
From my throne
I'm not your shadow
Or your unknown
I'm not your shade
I'm not your lamp
I'm my own masterpiece
And when I walk away
I'm not your shadow,
You're mine.
I'm not your shadow,
I'm mine.